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Have you ever just felt like you're stuck in your own life and you can't get out?  That's kinda how I've been the past several months.  I'd say I'm depressed, but I really don't have anything to be depressed about.  Lately it just feels like all my days ooze together into a big blob of nothing, and I find myself feeling empty.

Artistically, I am completely blocked.  Art, writing, even crochet, I just have no motivation or inspiration for any of it.  I hate it.  I want more than anything to create something, but I just completely lack the drive, and when I try to force it, it comes out awful and I get disgusted with myself.

Lately I haven't been talking to anyone.  I've kind of become a hermit.  I stay indoors, only leave when absolutely necessary, and I only really talk to my husband and daughter.  Maybe I'm lonely?  I dunno.  I'm not usually one to crave interaction with others (I'm pretty introverted and socially anxious), and I'm not really unhappy with staying home all the time.  I much prefer to stay at home rather than go somewhere.  But despite that, I find myself feeling empty a lot as of late.  I cry easily.  There's a heavy, anxious feeling in my chest a lot.  I get frustrated easier, which I hate, because it always ends with me taking it out on my loved ones.

I don't even know if any of this makes sense.  I just logged in to clean out my inbox here, noticed I hadn't posted a journal in a few months, and thought I'd try to write out some of the feelings I've been having.  I don't like to bother other people with my problems, so I usually keep everything to myself.  I guess, more than anything, I'm saying I'm unhappy.  I don't know why I'm unhappy.  I should be happy.  Why am I not?  What's wrong with me?
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Reading: Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
  • Playing: Story of Seasons
  • Drinking: Water
Crochet Dump: Hats Part 1 by SakuraMota
Crochet Dump: Hats Part 1
Here are two of the hats I've made since I started crocheting.  You get to see my ugly mug modeling them, yaaaay.  :faint:

Left: Finn hat from Adventure Time.  The original hat had a chin strap option, but I opted instead to make it more of a beanie.  I might make the chinstrap option one day.

Pattern here


Right: Link hat!  I remember not liking this pattern at all in the end.  There were just several times where it felt like it wasn't written properly.  I improvised a lot from the base pattern.

Pattern here




NOTHING POSTED HERE IS FOR SALE.  All of these items were made for either myself or my loved ones, primarily using patterns that are not mine and of copyrighted characters.
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Crochet Dump: Stuffies Part 4 by SakuraMota
Crochet Dump: Stuffies Part 4
Last one in my grouped stuffies dump, part 4!

1. Moogle plushie~

Pattern here


2. Pusheen for my daughter, who is obsessed with cats.

Pattern here


3. Weeping Angel plush I mentioned in a previous dump.  Made this for my sister.

Pattern here


NOTHING POSTED HERE IS FOR SALE.  All of these items were made for either myself or my loved ones, primarily using patterns that are not mine and of copyrighted characters.
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Crochet Dump: Stuffies Part 3 POKEMON by SakuraMota
Crochet Dump: Stuffies Part 3 POKEMON
Dump tiemz, Pokemon edition!

It goes without saying that I'm a Pokeholic, so of course this translates into my crochet.  I've made lots of Pokemon stuff.  Here's just some of them.


1. Baby Umbreon!  The artist who designed these is here on dA, and I LOVE their work.  I plan to make all of their Eeveelution patterns one day.

Pattern here


2. A Pokeball set I made for my daughter's 5th birthday, which was Pokemon themed.  I loved improvising the designs on these.  At this point, I modified the basic ball pattern, so these don't have a pattern to list!  :3


3. Ash Ketchum fingerless gloves for giggles.  For when you want to be the very best, like no one ever was.  I improvised this set after looking at a few fingerless gloves patterns.  It was kind of an amalgamation of a few patterns, as well as a few of my own improvisations and ideas.


4. Pokeball drawstring bag.  I made this to have a little bag to carry with me while jogging so I wouldn't have to carry my purse with me.  Once again, I improvised.  I originally started crocheting in Feb 2014, and somewhere around May, I started to get more confident with improvising without a pattern, and several of the items in this dump were made around or after that point.


5. Togepi Egg.  One day I plan to make more Pokemon Eggs like this.

Pattern here




NOTHING POSTED HERE IS FOR SALE.  All of these items were made for either myself or my loved ones, primarily using patterns that are not mine and of copyrighted characters.
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SakuraMota

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NAME SakuraMota
NICKNAME: SakuMo
D.O.B. July 31
AGE: 27
HAIR: Red (dyed)
EYES: Green-hazel
INTERESTS: Pokemon, Harvest Moon, pixel art, sprite editing
ON dA TO: Write, doodle, pixel edit
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Have you ever just felt like you're stuck in your own life and you can't get out?  That's kinda how I've been the past several months.  I'd say I'm depressed, but I really don't have anything to be depressed about.  Lately it just feels like all my days ooze together into a big blob of nothing, and I find myself feeling empty.

Artistically, I am completely blocked.  Art, writing, even crochet, I just have no motivation or inspiration for any of it.  I hate it.  I want more than anything to create something, but I just completely lack the drive, and when I try to force it, it comes out awful and I get disgusted with myself.

Lately I haven't been talking to anyone.  I've kind of become a hermit.  I stay indoors, only leave when absolutely necessary, and I only really talk to my husband and daughter.  Maybe I'm lonely?  I dunno.  I'm not usually one to crave interaction with others (I'm pretty introverted and socially anxious), and I'm not really unhappy with staying home all the time.  I much prefer to stay at home rather than go somewhere.  But despite that, I find myself feeling empty a lot as of late.  I cry easily.  There's a heavy, anxious feeling in my chest a lot.  I get frustrated easier, which I hate, because it always ends with me taking it out on my loved ones.

I don't even know if any of this makes sense.  I just logged in to clean out my inbox here, noticed I hadn't posted a journal in a few months, and thought I'd try to write out some of the feelings I've been having.  I don't like to bother other people with my problems, so I usually keep everything to myself.  I guess, more than anything, I'm saying I'm unhappy.  I don't know why I'm unhappy.  I should be happy.  Why am I not?  What's wrong with me?
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Reading: Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
  • Playing: Story of Seasons
  • Drinking: Water

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eatpraylove Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, long time no see! You've had your wisdom teeth out, right? Is it normal to have trouble opening your mouth two days after the surgery? (Also, what's your 3DS Friend Code? I have New Leaf and I wanna play with someone :D)
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SakuraMota Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
It's normal to be a little stiff for a while, yeah. If it doesn't improve after a week, I'd inform your doctor, though.

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eatpraylove Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry for the late reply. My mom's going to call them tomorrow, since my teeth still hurt :( :(

My Friend Code is 0576-5807-4247, and my Mii's name is Sara (spelled without the H, unlike my actual name, because reasons). What's your Mii's name?
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eatpraylove Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy belated birthday!
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AnimeArtist154ever Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Professional Writer
Happy Birthday
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XxDigiHeroesxX Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2013
do you do request?
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SakuraMota Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I do not. Barely can make time for my own personal art stuff, let alone do requests on top. Sorry! :c
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XxDigiHeroesxX Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013
ok
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DragonHaven42 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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SakuraMota Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You are very welcome. :icondummydanceplz:
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